Unfathomable
/There is nothing harder in the world than having to say good bye to your child.
It is a pain no parent should ever know. Tears that should never be wept.
We enter parenthood in good faith, with dreams of watching our children grow up and become parents themselves. Images of little league games and school pageants, followed with learning to drive and onto dating.
We try to visualize our children's future all the while breathing in their sweet smells and blowing raspberry kisses on their little bellies.
We moan and groan over potty training foibles and temper tantrums in the grocery store. We dread the teenage years and the rebellion we know which must surely follow. We never think of the possibility of not having another tomorrow with our child.
It's unfathomable.
We do everything in our power to give our children the tools they need, the love they need to succeed in life, with the hope their lives will be everything they dream it to be.
What we don't ever imagine is being robbed of that joy, of that promise, of that life we created or adopted.
It is unfathomable to think we can have a child one minute and only a memory the next.
Two of our fellow mommy bloggers and their husbands are facing this reality. Two of our own, in this electronic community we have created online for ourselves are struggling with the knowledge there will be no prom dates, no more raspberry kisses.
Two more families now have to face their new unimaginable reality and deal with the fiercest pain they will ever know.
I'm in Los Angeles to help the Spohr family say goodbye to their beloved Maddie. Meanwhile, I'm sending prayers to Thalon's family and asking my Bug to play with his newest little angel friend.
I wish I didn't have to.
I wish I didn't have an angel of my own to talk to.
I wish I was anywhere else but here.
I wish I could say this was unfathomable.
But I know it's not.
It is a pain no parent should ever know. Tears that should never be wept.
We enter parenthood in good faith, with dreams of watching our children grow up and become parents themselves. Images of little league games and school pageants, followed with learning to drive and onto dating.
We try to visualize our children's future all the while breathing in their sweet smells and blowing raspberry kisses on their little bellies.
We moan and groan over potty training foibles and temper tantrums in the grocery store. We dread the teenage years and the rebellion we know which must surely follow. We never think of the possibility of not having another tomorrow with our child.
It's unfathomable.
We do everything in our power to give our children the tools they need, the love they need to succeed in life, with the hope their lives will be everything they dream it to be.
What we don't ever imagine is being robbed of that joy, of that promise, of that life we created or adopted.
It is unfathomable to think we can have a child one minute and only a memory the next.
Two of our fellow mommy bloggers and their husbands are facing this reality. Two of our own, in this electronic community we have created online for ourselves are struggling with the knowledge there will be no prom dates, no more raspberry kisses.
Two more families now have to face their new unimaginable reality and deal with the fiercest pain they will ever know.
I'm in Los Angeles to help the Spohr family say goodbye to their beloved Maddie. Meanwhile, I'm sending prayers to Thalon's family and asking my Bug to play with his newest little angel friend.
I wish I didn't have to.
I wish I didn't have an angel of my own to talk to.
I wish I was anywhere else but here.
I wish I could say this was unfathomable.
But I know it's not.